I am stress, sad and lonely. I have no spirit, even to talk with others.
I have problem with my sister and brother, I hate their attitudes. And I don't understand why my sister suddenly ignores me.
I am so tired with her. She did this to me for 3 years, we didn't talk at all, which finally stopped 2 years ago. But she started it again.
I feel like I want to run. I hate to stay at home.
My mom could see that I'm lonely so she tried to talk with me.
But I feel so stress so I just keep quite.
Until yesterday I asked my bf to call me and I told him everything, how I feel and why.
I cried and he only asked me to be patient.
I felt much better after that. However, when he's busy and I'm at home, I still feel lonely.
He's worried with me.
I have no idea what I should do.
I am so tired.
I'm starting hate my sister and brother.
I should get a job soon to make myself busy.
I don't want to give a shit about my relationship with my siblings.
I will do my best for myself, parents and my bf.

I'm back and a review

Finally Im getting better. I never sick like this long, a week ! Which make me feel so stress and tired. Well seems nobody cares, lets continue with a review.
As I promise, a review about ELF Mineral Blush.

Rose, Bliss, Joy

ELF Mineral Blush is not so popular I think. At least from the spree that I join, mostly order the $1 stuffs. While me, never order or interested with ELF bcoz looks cheap and no quality. Yeah, can't judge a book by its cover, but I do believe people always tempted to buy something bcoz the cute or elegant packaging.
ELF Mineral blush interest me bcoz it's the cheapest mineral blush I have seen and they have pretty colors. Beside that, it said that no parabens, no chemical dyes and no preservatives so it's quite guarantee about the safety.
I got Rose, Bliss and Joy. All of them are pretty :)
Texture wise, it's smooth and blend nicely. However, if compare with La Femme blusher, they are not so pigmented. Joy and Bliss I think only can use for u who has fair to light skin tone.
Me myself needs to swipe several times until the color appears.

Joy, Bliss and Rose

Rose has the darkest color, so u can see the color appear easily. Joy is sweet pink, Bliss is peach and Rose is dark pink. All of them have shimmers, but still acceptable.
Two days ago, I put Joy after MAC Powder Blush in Fleur Power, but I didn't see any difference as I thought it could give me a nice glow.
Overall, I like it, 3.5 out of 5.
Repurchase ? No. I prefer to get another mineral blusher.
I hope my review gonna help u.
Bye.

Sick =(

I have been sick since 2 days ago, but today is the worst, kept vomiting. Feel better now. But I'm not sure how I am until tonight.
A bit tired.
Btw, here's a pic that I love :)

I got this pic from Sephora.com.
I love the clean look yet glamor.
Well that's all my super short update. I need some sleep -.-'
Bye !



Meri L

Stay With You

A very sweet song that I dedicated special to my lover, my Schatz (Deutsch means treasure)
Sunday, 2 August 2009 was his birthday..
I wasn't with u, but my heart will always will..
Happy birthday to u Schatz, I wish u all the best..
I wish u that everything is going better and better..
I wish u a happier life..
I wish when ur birthday next year, next next year, when u are getting older, I will be with u..
I heart u..


"Stay With You"

We've been together for a while now
We're growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there's no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

Though relationships can get old
They have the tendency to grow cold
We have something like miracle
Yeah, and I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for the lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you
I will stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you

MIA

Hi there, I decided to delete my previus post as I prefer to tell u the details. Bcoz I still have unfinish-bussines, so I think it's necessary to tell u.
First, I came back to M'sia to cancel my student visa. I finished my study and I am graduated ! Too bad the result is not that good, I was very lazy. When I said cancel my visa, it's not enough to tell the student service that sentence. I had to ask for approval and attendace letter from my lecturer and other procedures.
Second, to get my certificate. Yeah I need it to find a job.
Third, move and clean all my stuffs from my house in M'sia. Tiring -.-'
I sold my electronic stuff and in the other day, I went to recycle company.
I need times to do those tasks, so I hope anyone who dealt with me will understand.
After that I stayed at hotel without I expected. None of my housemates informed me that someone has taking my room :(
So yeah, that's what happen. Sorry for being MIA. I dont have internet connection at the hotel. I need to pay and I think it's not worth it.
I only have 45 minutes until I go back to Indonesia.
After that, I will post anything that I got in M'sia. All the hauls =)
Pray for me to have a safe journey =p
Hope I can come back to M'sia soon =)



Cheers
Meri L

My Projects

Start tomorrow, 30 June 2009 I will have projects for my own.
First will be a project where I need to save my money for 3 weeks until I come back to Malaysia. Means, no haul for a month if I count since last week. Sigh..It's kinda hard, but I have to survive >.< I will not shop any clothes or makeup. Instead, I will use all the makeup that I have now. Some of them haven't been used by me yet.
The second project will be lose weight project. I gained 9 kgs in a year -.-' My goal will be 50 kgs.
What I will do :

• Drink more mineral water
• Cut junk food and sweets
• Light exercise like walking and sit up
• Very light breakfast and dinner
• Healthy lunch ;)

Deadline will be 17 Oct 2009 when my sister is getting married ;)
Hope u all can support me =) Suggestion is very welcome =)


Cheers
Meri L

I'm Home ! Yee pee !

Hi everybody ! Sorry these 3 days no updates from me. I was in Genting on Tuesday and Wednesday. And here's I am, at home, Indonesia !
I was stuck in the car for 2,5 hours bcoz traffic jam ! Sigh..Indonesia is famous for that.
When I just reached home, I met mom and after that we had long chat. I am happy. Usually I am afraid to talk with her. She's a bit changed this year, that's why we are getting further. Well, I hope our relationship is getting better.
Oh well, lets talk about makeup. I haven't go to any shopping mall yet, but I check from the magazine. The currency that I used is RM 1 = Rp 3,000.
Some of them come cheaper here, here's a price list :
YSL Touche Eclat = RM 100
MUFE HD Foundation = RM 125
MUFE HD Primer = RM 105
Anna Sui Pressed Powder = RM 122
MAC Strobe Cream = RM 143
Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler = RM 62.67
Etude House Peach Cheek Blusher = RM 72.67
PAC Eye Shadow Powder = RM 19.17

MAC, Shu Uemura and Etude House I think it's more expensive in Indonesia. So I will indulge myself with other brand that might be cheaper here. I want to get Lunasol, MUFE, Paul and Joe and PAC. My sister and my bf are busy, they can't company me =(
I can't wait to shop ! My bf said that he wanted to buy me present for my birthday gift. Of course Im gonna use it for makeup :D
What's ur shopping list ? Share with me =)


Cheers
Meri L

I am so tired, stress mode is on

As u know, I sell some of my stuffs and there's a girl who urgently needed to get moisturizer that I had. She asked for discount, then I gave her RM 5 cheaper. Then we had our deal. I sent it to her and she received 2 days ago.
But she complained, as the size is only 7ml. While that time she asked me, I said 15 ml. I said so because that's what I seen from the note at the bottom of the jar.
She said no, it's 7 ml. I said sorry, it was my mistaken.
She said that this problem can't be solved with a sorry.
I was like..? To be honest, for me it's a simple problem and if someone did it to me I will just forgive her. I didn't try to cheat at all. But she made the problem become so complicated.
She asked for refund and will send it back to me.
I said can't refund as once good sold, no refund or cancellation.
And other thing is, as I know she really need it. That's why I sent it immediately after she did the payment. How can u ask for refund if u really need it ?
Maybe she ady got the original size from her sister. She asked her sister to buy for her in Hong Kong.
So finally she said to search what the price for 7ml in market was. I said why don't just give u discount for next purchase. She rejected.
I felt so pissed off. Ya, it was my mistaken. I said sorry and tried to solve this problem in my way. But she kept asking for refund. OMG. Damn fucking annoying bitch. What's wrong with u ?
I wish I won't face this kind of people again. People can be so stingy and calculative even only for RM 5. So finally I did the refund n I hope she won't find me again. I was so stress for lots of problem and busy as I need to pack all my stuffs. But then I had to face a silly problem like this.
It was a bad luck.
Sigh...I want to go back to Indonesia to refresh my mind asap.
I was(am) so stress and did lots of stupid things that were not good. Sometime u just feel like want to hurt urself. And last nite I told my bf. He said that I was stupid, but in the same time he was sad. I hurt someone that love me so much, it's more pain compare to all stupid things that I did. I just didn't know how to appreciate my life >.<
I should say sorry to myself and people who care a lot about me.
Sigh...don't u think sometime when u are emo or stress, u can be so pathetic or dramatic ? Well at least for me =p

Somebody, please kill me

I spent these 3 days at shopping mall and how torturing that was when I cant spend any single pennies bcoz I need to save up. Aaaargh..Can u imagine when u usually buy 3-10 items in a day, but now u got nothing after spend so long time at the mall ?

I cant stand for it ! I want to shop !

Huks..Hope one day I have RM 10k to shop, LOL.

Btw, I want to introduce a brand that still consider as new in Malaysia.

I post this not for commercialize, but I want to share where u can get a good stuff with afforadble price.

picture credits to kimberlycun.com

Stage cosmetic which is proudly new makeup brand from Malaysia itself. Stage is located in Mid Valley, Pavillion and other places that I don't know, LOL. This brand offers u lots of selection, but for me I haven't found anything interesting yet so far. Excpet for the makeup brush.

Yesterday I tried the angled blush brush and powder brush which are definetly soft and comparable with MAC. I really love it. And for the price, it's only half of MAC brushes. One day I will get the angled blush brush :D But please, don't even think to get the kabuki brush, which is not soft at all and scratchy. Blah. It's like a broom.

For the packaging, they are ugly, LOL. At least for me =p

For the price, they are affordable. The eyelash curler is RM 35, the blusher is RM 58. The blusher reminds me with NYX Rouge Cream Blush, very similar. But this one is powder blush and has lots of pretty color =)

Maybe if u have time u can drop by and try it on. They also have makeup train case, which similar with a brand from Japan that I found in Indonesia and it's cheaper. It's very nice and u can consider to have it.

That's all from me, just a short post :D

Is there anything u want to get by this week ? Do share with me, even though I will be so jealous T.T

Happy shopping !

Meri L

Aaaargh my phones !

Yesterday both of my phones were damaged bcoz of water. No, not water, it's worst, brush cleanser from MAC ! I took pictures for my upcoming posts and I decided to clean up my makeup box. I didn't realize why some of them were wet. Until I saw my LG phone was vibrating and suddenly off.
OMG ! The brush cleanser was accidentally opened and my LG and Motorola became the victim. They were killed by my lovely MAC ! Aaaargh >.< Not only that, my MAC blusher and bronzer boxes too ! I always keep everything in the box. I didn't throw it away as I think it's tidier. I was so sad !
I can't take any picture for my blog anymore. But well, it's good for readers so it won't hurt their eyes with such bad quality pictures, LOL.
Lucky, I could turn on my Motorola after several times I tried. If not, I had no idea what should I do ! I can't buy phone now, it's not the right time as I want to buy something for mom.
And other thing that make me sad, I have lots of time and spirit(sounds funny) to post lots of thing. But why did this happen ? Huks T.T
I think I should wait until I go back to Indonesia, as my sister has DSLR and I can borrow so I won't hurt ur eyes anymore :D So this 10 days I will post everything without picture and make u deadly bored ! Booo. I supposed post about my package that I got by today. Huks >.<
Is there anyone wants to give me ur phone or camera ? :D I don't think my mom allows me to buy new phone :(
To make it worse, now my brush cleanser only left half :( Yesterday was a bad day. I wish for a better, happy oh lucky day !


Cheers
Meri L

Another MAC haul =p

I am such a MAC whore, LOL. Now I have 15 plus stuffs from MAC. And I wish to get other stuff, but have to postpone, as I want to buy something for my mom. Hope readers from Malaysian can help to clear my stuffs =p
Last Monday I received my package as I ordered MAC by online.
And I did before I am planning to buy something for my mom, so forgive me to spend money for myself :D
This is what I got :


Bronzing Powder in Solar Riche, Lustre Drops in Sun Rush and Pink Rebel. All from Style Warrior collection. I had tried all of them and I love it =)
What do u like from Style Warrior collection ? Do share with me =)

Out of topic, today I had done my final presentation and I was so relieved. It's my last semester and I will miss everything that I had there..
I will miss my friends.
I will miss the time we stayed at university.
I will miss the time we eat together with all the laugh and stupid joke.
I will miss the time we were gossiping about people.
I learnt lots of things since I stay abroad, far from my home.
I am really thankful to God and parents for giving me a chance to have this kind of experience.
It's precious, something that I might not get if I studied in Indonesia.
I always love when I can learn, see and feel something that I never had before.
After this, I will have my real life where I have to survive and work harder. However, I just want to enjoy my life. So money is not an issue for me. It's a lie if I said money is not important, if I don't like money. I need money, it is important. But it's not everything, money can't buy a happiness for u.
Let's compare. When u buy Chanel bag, Salvtore Ferragamo shoes, how long the happiness will be last ? Compare to, u do charity, help people and make a surprise for people that u love.
Personally, I always happy and glad when I can do something for people. When I do charity, I feel so relieve. When I can make my bf, friends and family smile or laugh, it's so priceless.
Especially for my Dad, he never complain, he is very quite man. We seldom talk and spend time together. We are not that close.
But I really love him so much. I will do everything to make him happy. He works so hard and seldom spend time with me. I won't be a bad girl just because less attention that I got. I won't complain. This is his way to show how he loves me. He won't say that he loves me directly. I respect him.
I always feel excited if I can buy food that he may like, if we can go dinner together.
One day I wish to say that I love him so much and I am proud to be his daugther.
I love my family to death.
I will, one day, be succeed in my carrier, I believe and I have to make it. Just for u Dad..
Don't get me wrong, I love my Mom too, but she's an expressionist, it's easy to know how she feels and I am not shy to hug and kiss her. On the other hand, my dad is a shy and quite guy.
To see him laugh is just like a treasure.
I hope I could bring happiness more than all the pains he and my mom had..
I hope I can spend more time with them, to pay all the precious thing that I passed as I am oversea.

Remember, whenever, wherever, u can find a friend. But, u can't find family in other places.
So, use ur time wisely before u regret that. It's not a lie that one day u can't see them any longer in ur life. And I don't want to cry for that.
U won't know how happy they are when u hug them and u say that u love them..

A little bit personal of me

This post has nothing to do with beauty..I just felt like want to share with u all.
Last nite I was calling my bf for hundred times, from 10 pm until 1am, he didn't answer at all.
I was panicking. It's not bcoz I was afraid he cheated on me, but I was afraid that something happened to him. I could not imagine that..
I tried to call his best friend, but no answer..Left me with the frustrated feeling, I cried.
I had no idea what should I do. He's in Indonesia, I could not go to his house to check his condition.
I was really scared if the worst nightmare came to crash my life. He's not only my bf, but he's someone in my life. We had shared lots of things together, all pains and happiness.
He's really important for me. I know him for 5 years, since that he is always be my comfort zone. I share whole things with him. He never complain when I talk about makeup. He even said I was smart for all acknowledge that I have about makeup. If he could help me to buy makeup, he will be so happy for me.
After became so frustrated, finally he answered my call. I shout and I cried. He told me that he was sick and fell a sleep. He silent his phone. I was very angry and relieved in the same time to know that he's still there.
I know that I think too much. But I really don't want to lose him >.< No one can change his position in my heart.
He won't cheat. I know him. I believe in him. Once he told me that he worked so hard, only for me. He even tried to get another job, so he could get more salary.
One thing that he shoud know, I could not be happier else than be with him.
Another 3 weeks I will go back to Indonesia and I can't wait to hold his hand..

I love u so much, my treasure...
I want to grow old with u..Only u.

Don't mess with me

I deleted this post as the seller had contacted me. Phew...
I never experience bad seller who only wants to steal my money. I hope it never happen to me.
I am impatient as I did not get any reply and specific date when she would send package.
I also ordered something from someone else, but she told me she will send it on Friday.
Yups, I need to wait a bit long, but I appreciate her for telling me and I believe that she will be in time.
I never like when someone does something slow or not professional.
Of course, I will try to be professional too.
Cheers.

Birthday gifts from US spree

Phew...finally I got this package, even though I had to take it at the post office.

I hate it. It wastes my time -.-'

What I got for US Spree is not as many as usual, because I was afraid I don't have any money for urgent needs. Now I want to save money, but seems like so many things are tempting >.<

So, here it is, my US Spree

Bare Escentuals Prime Time

NYX Round Lipstick in B52 and Tea Rose

At least, now I have another item (lipstick) else than foundation and makeup base, Lol.

I bought the BE Prime Time, as I read from Sephora, they are best seller for primer. It was a good time to buy, because Ulta had 15% discount last month. I was surprised to see how small the size, but it's 30 ml though, standard quantity. If less than that, I would think that the primer is expensive =( But sad, the box suffered from damage. Maybe u find it weird, but all my makeup stuffs still in the packaging box. Kinda obsessive compulsive, huh ? :p

Anyway, I have one question, if u can have one of my gifts, which one will u choose ?

That's all for today. Happy weekend =)

Happy Birthday =)

I am wishing myself a happy lovely birthday and praying that all my dreams and wishes come true =)
Indeed, I am happy because my friends gave me surprise.
We had photoshoot for our class in front of the library and after finished, we still enjoyed taking our pictures. Until suddenly, my friends sang happy birthday to me. When I turned back, I saw my 2 friends brought a cake with greetings on it.
I am so happy and I felt like I did not deserve it as I am not a good friend.
They are too nice to me, but I am really appreciated what they did =)
As my promise, I will reveal all my birthday gifts by today, but too bad, my another stuffs from US spree have not reach me yet. I think I have to take it in the post office -.-'
Should I reveal what I got ?
I will, but maybe later =p

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!

I am touched !

I got this from vonvon =)

This award as appreciation to someone that u think inspired u and friendly. Wow ! Thanks vonvon =)

While me, I will give this award to all beauty bloggers as they are really inspiring =) Since read review about makeup, I become more critical with my makeup. Not just something that I put on my face, but have to see and feel if it suits me, good quality and worth to buy.
And finally I am out of my comfort zone, I am planning to order eyeshadow together with the primer with Ryan =) I think I want to order from Revlon, want do u think ?
Yeah I bite my own tongue, as in previous post I said that I don't want to buy anything from Ulta n Drugstore.
So what ? It's good think, right ?
I want to be good in makeup or maybe excellent ! Lol.
I really love makeup so much, it's my therapy and always work !
Tomorrow is my birthday n it's the time to reveal all my birthday hauls.
Stay tune =)

A blur future

Counting down the days until I graduate..
I am so lazy and no spirit at all to do my assignments..It's so boring that u have to do same thing each semester, only different topic and quantity.
I am wondering if I can be a designer as I am no passion to fashion design. I like to design but I dont like to sew and draft. Even choose the right fabric, I am not good at all.
I am still willing to work in fashion field..but I prefer for makeup now.
My parents and bf put a hope on me to be a successful designer, but somehow, I am no longer want to be a designer.
I am afraid that Im gonna be useless.
I am afraid that I make my parents dissapointed.

I am pissed off

I should receive another package yesterday, but I have not got it until today.
Possibly, I will not get it by today as it's public holiday. Happy Vesak btw =)
I am so worried now and I don't expect that my package is lost. Touch wood*
The problem started when the seller sent using post express, while I asked for register mail.
I asked for using register mail because I have some buyers that said they have bad experience using post express. Another reason is, the item that I bought from her is kinda bulky, where did the heck u think to send it by post express ?
She changed the postage method without my acknowledgement. It's so not professional and u have no right to do so.
She said it's not her responsible if the package is lost.
For God sake...
I dare to say that is part of ur responsiblity for lacking of professionalism.
If until Monday I have not receive anything yet, I am gonna shoot u !
I had been wanting this item since long time ago. When finally I can get it, u ruined it !
It's my birthday gift !
Furthermore, u asked me to call the customer service of post office by myself !
U really don't care if I cant' get my package.
I will not buy anything from u anymore ! U ruined my day !